Understanding God

I feel proud of myself for one thing. I asked myself, who is god? I don't want to believe the the things happening around me. Praying god and expecting good marks in the exam without studying properly, more money without work. Everyday visiting temple and assuming god will send you heaven. I don't say all these things are stupid, but i don't like them. One more funny thing, many people will pray god to forgive their sins. They wont stop doing sins. They will get into a bad habit, do sin and pray god. Instead of praying god, i will sit alone and i will think about the mistakes i did and try to rectify them. This way i won't repeat my mistakes or sins. I feel this is better than praying god. If i want good marks in the exams, i will study carefully, i will make sure that i understood every topic. so that i won't get confused with the tough questions.If i want more money, i will think about earning money in different ways. I will work smart or work hard, whatever it takes.

People will offer money to god, if they want good marks in the exam. If they want their visa to be approved, they will offer more money. I really want to know, will god do all these things by taking these offerings.

Some of my friends says: humans, animals, morning,evening,sun,rain,trees etc., all these things are created by god. Without which, we cannot live. so god is great. I won't completely disagree with all these things. But all the above mentioned things are part of nature.The evolution of nature happened over the period of years. It is not the same yesterday and it won't be same tomorrow. I don't think god will change something, depends on your prayers.

Anyway i am in process of understanding god. One day i may become a big devotee, but only after getting all my answers.